关于我自己
关于我自己
翁伟
2004
我生于1962年，父亲是广东潮州人，母亲出生在山东青岛。解放前父母都参了军，母亲在总政，父亲属“四野”。1952年父母同时由部队考入天津南开大学，同在经济系，1958年支边来到河北张家口。我就出生在那儿，成了一个生长在河北的广东人。
由于父母同时工作，所以我由奶奶带大。从小学到高中，我的文化课一直都不错，但身体一直不太好。3岁时得过脑炎，11岁时患了心肌炎。当时国家的政策是知识青年都要“上山下乡”，但每个家庭可以有一个子女留在身边。我哥哥已经留城，我高中毕业后肯定得下乡插队。父母考虑我身体不好，干不了农活，如果会画画，下乡后就可以在公社搞搞宣传，于是我开始学画画。上大学前，教我画画的分别是刘福满、许永昌、宁鸿霖三位老师，我将一生感激他们。
1978年，我考上了大学，那年我16岁。1982年大学毕业，分配在一所中学教美术。1988年调到北京，任教于中央工艺美院附中。同年，我的儿子出生了。这之后，我先后任教于中央工艺美术学院、中国人民大学徐悲鸿艺术学院。现在中央美术学院城市设计学院继续从事教学工作。说来我当画家是业余的，当老师才是正经专业的，我真的很喜欢当老师。
从大学毕业到现在，绘画这件事在我心中一直是被当作一生的事业来看待的。作品也参加过一些展览，得过奖，还被北京美术家协会收藏了。有些画也成功地被拍卖。但说实话，我自己觉得经过这二十几年的历练，对于画画的事，好像才刚刚懂。眼下想的是准备用10年的时间，认认真真画出点东西来。
2006
我是20世纪60年代初出生的那拨人，1978年上了大学。现如今四十几岁的年龄不知该算青年还是中年。回想以往，学习、工作、绘画几乎成了生活的全部内容，日子过得平静而又简单。
这些年我生活的这座城市发生了巨大的变化，变得有如20世纪80年代初我们在进口电影中看到的外国城市一般光鲜。黄昏来临，我常常会站在画室的阳台上向外张望，高楼大厦顶上色彩不断变换的霓虹灯不停地闪烁，立交桥上汇聚着的不同方向的车流在不停地旋转。各种形状、色彩不一的灯光和城市上空的晚霞交织在一起，就像一座大的游乐场般高速运转，迷幻而又壮观。
与此同时，我身边熟悉的人们也一天天地变得陌生了。当年的学生早已长大，和我许多的朋友一样充满热情地投入了城市的怀抱。说出来的话都是时尚的新鲜词，博客、恶搞、网恋、一夜情、职场中的人和事、压力与未解决……看他们聊得起劲，我插不上话。
不知不觉中，我也在变。以前绘画时十分看重的诸如油画语言的纯正、用笔的讲究等问题一天天淡化了，代之以文化层面的思考。绘画是我心灵最初级最本源的需要。我不知离开绘画，这生命中的许多时间我还能干些什么。绘画成了我的一种生活方式，绘画的过程就是生命的过程。我每天的工作就是用绘画记录下我所生活的城市、记录下身边我熟悉而又陌生的人们。我对自己作品优劣的判断，只是它像不像我所看到的，是不是我所感知的，如此而已。或许这就是我的艺术追求吧。
2008
五年前，我在一篇自述中写过这样一句话：“……在我心里，绘画这件事一直是被当作一生的事业来看待的 …… ”。
画画是一项“事业”，像是肩负着沉重的使命。由此说来，那时的我对于绘画这件事真的是才刚刚懂。
如今，在我的认知里，绘画一词所蕴含的内容已经大大地丰富了。
作为一种生活方式，画画已经和谐地成为我生活的一部分。每天早晨，当我面对画面的时候，心里总是充满了期待。我渴望着绘画带给我一天的愉悦，我很享受这种感觉。
时间一天天过着，渐渐地好像体会到了一点什么，觉得画画不是一件特别艰难的事情。每天，我所要做的只是循着自己眼睛的发现，把这心灵中感悟到的美感展现到画布上。一遍遍反复地描绘，直到画面上呈现出我希望看到的那种悠远绵长的美妙感觉。
有人说，油画是西方传来的画种，除了专业人士，普通中国观众很难体会油画语言的奇妙之处。其实这是将油画“神话”了。我以为，油画只是一种通俗的超越国界的绘画语言，是一种用来感动欣赏者心灵的东西。经过一百年的演进，今天在中国这块土地上所能看到的中国画家所描绘的油画作品，从文化上早已融入中国本土，成为当今中国绘画的一部分了。我们完全可以以一个中国人的眼光，用中国文化的标准来考量它，欣赏它。
就个性而言，生活中的我是一个追求完美的人。我迷恋我眼睛看到的那种无以言表的奇妙感觉，我希望我的绘画能更单纯，我渴望画出那种纯视觉、纯绘画的作品来。
我知道，绘画没有完美可言。画画的过程就是一个追求完美的过程，常常是当感觉快要达到完美的时候，完美本身又改变了。可以说，追求完美的过程是一趟没有终点的旅程。追求完美的人们，都似那逐日的夸父，永不停歇地奔跑就是他们一生的命运。或许，追逐完美本身是一种境界，痴迷其中也是一种幸福。
时间真快，如果一个人的习艺生涯可以从他上大学那天正式算起的话，到今年我已入行整30年了。可以说绘画已经与我的生命融为一体，我将与之相伴直至永远，它是我的心灵家园。
About Myself
Weng Wei
2004
My father is from Chaozhou Guangdong province, while my mother comes from Qingdao Shandong province. Both of them joined the army before China,s liberation, and in the same year of 1952 were they enrolled by Economics Department of Tianjin Nankai University, then they moved to Zhangjiakou of Hebei province for supporting the frontier areas in 1958, and I was born there in 1962 and grew up a Cantonese in Hebei.
For the sake of my parents’ work, I was raised up by grandma. I studied well from primary school to senior high school, but I have been in poor heath, say, encephalitis at 3-year-old, and myocarditis at 11-year-old. Every educated youth should go to the countryside with only one child per family living in the city, according to policy at that time. Therefore, I had to go to the countryside after graduation from high school, since my elder bother had been in the city. I started to learn drawing, so that I could do some publicity work in the rural commune, regarding that my poor heath couldn’t afford the farm work. Within my lifetime, I will always appreciate Liu Fuman, Xu Yongchang and Ning Honglin who taught me drawing before entering into college.
At the age of 16, I was enrolled by the college in 1978, and was assigned to teach arts in a high school after graduation in 1982, then in 1988 I was transferred to Beijing to be a teacher of Middle School Affiliated to Central Fine Arts College, and my son was born in the same year. I worked in Central Fine Arts College and Xu Beihong Arts College of Chinese People’s University thereafter, and I continue to engage myself in the educational work in the city-design department of Central Academy of Fine Arts now. Being a teacher is my professional job whereas a painter is my amateur work, and I am really happy to be a teacher.
Painting has been esteeming as my life career since I graduated from college, during this period, some works of mine have been selected by kinds of exhibition, some won me awards, some have even been collected by Beijing Institution of Artists, and some have been successfully auctioned. To be honest, I just get to understand painting through 20 years’ experience. My short-term vision is to paint something in earnest in the next 10 years.
2006
I was born in early 1960s, and entered university in 1978. It is not easy to define whether the people in their 40s belong to youth or middle-age. Looking backward the past, my whole life consisted of studying, working and painting, it was simple and smooth.
There stirs a huge change in the city I live recently, which seems as in vogue as the foreign city in the imported movie of 1980s. When the night comes, I often look out from the balcony, at the twinkling neon lights of the high-rise, at the streams of cars belting along the overpass, lights in different shapes and colors interlace with the sunset glow, which forms into spectacular and dreamy amusement park.
In the meantime, the familiar people turn into unfamiliar day by day. My formal students have grown up, and they enter into the society with enthusiastic and passion as my other friends, all their utters are brand-new words, such as blog, online love affair, one night stand, persons, events, pressure and unsolved in their career so that I can not chime in a word during their talking.
I am changing without awareness. My attention used to be paid on genuine canvas language and drawing, nowadays, considerations on cultural factors have taken their place, so painting comes back to the root needs from the bottom of heart. I have no idea what can I do with so much time left in my life without painting, for which is already my life style, and the process of painting is also that of life. My daily job is to record the city I am living in and people around me no matter he is familiar or not with the tool of painting. My judgment towards paintings is just whether it is like what I see and what I feel, perhaps, is my pursuit in arts.
2008
I have written in my autobiography five years ago: In my opinion, painting has been esteeming as my life career…
Painting is a career, which as if shoulders great missions, hereafter, I just get to understand painting at that time.
At present, painting, in my acknowledge, involves much more contents.
As a life style, painting has become part of life harmoniously. I am full of expectation as facing the paintings every morning, hoping painting can bring me a whole day amusement, which is also my enjoy.
As the time passes by, I gradually find out that painting is not so rough, what I do everyday is just put what I truly feel beautiful on the canvas, portray what I see time and time again till it presents as what you hope.
Some believe that oil-painting is beyond Chinese folk’s appreciation since it comes from the west, which is actually overstating. As far as I concerned, oilpainting is just a transnational language to touch appreciators’ soul. Through the evolution of a century, it has been localized in Chinese painters’ works, and entered into Chinese painting; as a result, we can consider and appreciate it from a Chinese point of view, based on Chinese culture.
Regarding to personality, I am perfection-pursuer in real life, I love the indescribable wonderful feelings, hope that my work is much purer, and wish something more pure vision and drawing in them.
There is no perfection in painting, I pursue perfection in the process, and when it come up to perfection, it itself has been changed, that is to say, pursue of perfection is a journey without destination, running without interruption is the fate of these for perfection. While, pursue for perfection may be a realm of mind, and being obsessed in it is also a kind of happiness.
How time flies, I have entered this field for 30 years, beginning at the college admission. The painting, as it were, is blending with my life, and will accompany me for ever, it is my harbor.
